In trying to make the most of 2019, I’m trying to put some of my bad habits behind me.
I am a CHAMPION worrier. I am not being boastful – this is one of my worst, most destructive behaviors and I would really like to change it.
My son and I had a good talk about this while he was home visiting. The gist of our talk, I guess, was the Serenity Prayer, but personalized to lots of my (and my son’s) particular worries. He is much more at peace since he became serious about meditating and he tried to share some of that with me. We talked openly about our fears, whether or not anything could be done to lessen or alleviate them, and at some points cried with each other. It was a really special time for us and I feel lucky we were able to share gut level feelings and help each other deal with them.
I’ve decided that this year I will –
- write down my fear
- explore honestly how valid the fear is
- if there is something I can do to lessen or alleviate it, I’ll do it
- if there is really nothing I can do about it, I’ll try to let go of it, leaving it in my journal
I’m hoping that facing each fear as it comes up will help me be more realistic and spend less time ‘playing the recording’ over and over in my head, causing me stress and anxiety and not changing anything for the better. My son and I have agreed that – even though he will again be across the world from me – we will both feel free to express any fears and help each other work through them.
I will try to use my imagination for my next art project!

